This book had me puzzled. At the beginning, I had no idea if I want to read on. Read it or leave it? Love it or hate it? I did enjoy the language and the writing style, but the total lack of plausibility in some of the described situations and characters was really getting on my nerves. The girl wins 18 million dollars and decides not to take it? Out of superstition? Hello? I would understand if she had anxiety problems or depression or whatever else that surely can affect your judgement. But her decision did not agree either with her character or her other actions. Then when it came to her most weird family relations, especially her parents, I really wanted to shout just like Stanislavsky: "I don't belive it! It's false! False!". Dramatic situations, both realistic and not at all, I've read about in plenty of books. This one did not leave anything but a distaste in my mouth. Only a saint could behave like Lily did. I know what it is to be shy, sad, dependent and stuck in unhealthy relations, but no one could eat all the contempt and disrespect from the nearest and dearest ones without choking on it at least once. By some miracle Lily didn't protest, except maybe at the end of the book.However, despite the holes in the plot, I did enjoy the book a lot. The suspense was there, the romance was there, some interesting thoughts and characters as well. And I absolutely loved the way the book was structured into chapters, each with a nice matching title made to interest you in further reading :)